Say hi to little heart.

I cried the whole evening. My eyes hurt & they're swollen.
I feel so empty.. Actually I should be "trained" in loosing people.. But it still hurts.
It feels like my wretched heart is crying & hits with its little fist against my chest.

I'm alone.. No one who can take my hand & show me that life have also good things.
I always left behind..
People want to let me go because I make mistakes. They go out of my life & I'm alone again..
On my own..
Although I'm so weak & need a hand to hold.
But whenever I have a hand to hold, they pull it back.. & I'm falling on the hard & cold floor.

But I'm the one to blame.. I opened my heart, although I know how dangerous it is.
I'm so angry.. & sad.. even ashamed.

I'll throw the keys to my heart away.. I'll bury them deep, deep within me..
So no one will find them. No one.

Say hi to newnewnew :)

      

 

haha :D

Say hi to monsters.

Say hi to dumb.

I'm feeling like a dumb piece of shit because I opened my heart again
& left my safety wall around me ... It's always the same when I do that.
I get hurt.

I will never do it again... I don't want it anymore. I hate humans.
Everyone is the same.. Monsters live in us humans & sometimes they get out.
Not yet, but someday.. for sure.

Say hi to touch.

 

Don't ever touch me again.

Say hi to blog.

I will start a new blog about dieting.
I don't want to "spam" my Thought-Blog here with calorie-counting or thinspo-posts.

The blog will be in german.
Click >>here<< to visit my blog. Enter at your own risk. It's triggering.

Say hi to dietdietdiet.

When you're easy to manipulate about eating & diets: Please don't visit my blog (anymore).

I'll post triggering blogposts about it. My posts will be about diets, starving & NOT healthy ideals.

I will write about what I eat, my goalweights & so on. So please don't read it, when ur

• in recovery/ recovered (don't be so fckng stupid like me & loose weight again. Stay healthy, it's a better choice)
• easy to manipulate
• already half dead because ur too thin. SEARCH HELP! PLEASE!

Monday I'll start my diet. Wish me luck. Or not.
 

Say hi to me.

I hate myself so much.. I hope I die.. I want to die. I want it so, so bad.. Now.