Say hi to little heart.

I cried the whole evening. My eyes hurt & they're swollen.
I feel so empty.. Actually I should be "trained" in loosing people.. But it still hurts.
It feels like my wretched heart is crying & hits with its little fist against my chest.

I'm alone.. No one who can take my hand & show me that life have also good things.
I always left behind..
People want to let me go because I make mistakes. They go out of my life & I'm alone again..
On my own..
Although I'm so weak & need a hand to hold.
But whenever I have a hand to hold, they pull it back.. & I'm falling on the hard & cold floor.

But I'm the one to blame.. I opened my heart, although I know how dangerous it is.
I'm so angry.. & sad.. even ashamed.

I'll throw the keys to my heart away.. I'll bury them deep, deep within me..
So no one will find them. No one.