Samstag, 8. Januar 2011

Say hello to self injury.

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Yesterday was such a bad day.
Even a clinic for mental problems doesn't want me,
because I have suicidal thoughts, I cut myself, I'm depressed & vegan.
They only said "Search for another clinic!" & I had to leave.
& the best: The clinic is 2 hours & 30 minutes away!

I was so sad... My head forced me to cut myself..
I felt so .. Offend..
Cutting is brainless, I know. But It helps when I see my blood.. When I feel pain..
The sweet pain shows me, that I still have feelings, even though I feel dead sometimes.
The pain tells me: You are still alive.
Hmm...

I ask(ed) myself ... 
Can anybody love a broken girl with mutilated arms?
With mutilated fingernails? Mutilated soul & personality? 
With sick thoughts & a sick mind?
... Do you have an answer?




1 Kommentar:

  1. please sweety dont hurt yourself :( you are so pretty you shouldnt do that with your beautiful body.
    and huni.. of course you can be loved! im sure you'll find the one who really love you. and you can also love. i wish ya the best my dear. really. you are such a great person.

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