Say hi to Ana.

 

I totally miss my legs ... It makes me insane. 

But even in this picture I wish they're thinner.

Everytime I look in the mirror... I wish I'm dead.

I want my old body. And then I want to lose more weight until I have my dreambody <3

I know.. I shouldn't have such thoughts. I should try to ignore Ana.

But she's (in) my life. She's the only one who understands me.

The only one who won't leave me. She's there & she will never hurt me.

She'll never lie to me.

I know.. This sounds fucking sick & weird. And well.. It IS sick. It IS weird.

But I can't help it. That's my life. My mind. My problem... My decision.

And my decision is to loose weight. Even if everyone is against it & hates me (now).

But .. What's better ...

When I feel unsatisfied with myself with this weight at the moment & want to die

or when I'm a stickfigure; but happy?

You can decide. I have already.