Say hi to my head.

I hate my thoughts. I hate them.. I think my head'll explode. it's so full of thoughts.

so full of destroying thoughts. so full of foolish thoughts. so full of ... suicidal thoughts.

But I can't do that... I can't do th... I can't... Can I... ?

My head hurts... It's so selfish.. Please, be quiet....

My head force me to think about the past.. My memory... My mother... My life....

I think about persons, that probably could miss me... But ..

Then I think of all the hurtful times with people... I think everybody is the same.

I remember my broken heart... I remember how dumb I was... Because I trusted...

I remember how cold and dead inside I was... Just because humans...

God ...

I'm so young.. I never wanted ANYTHING bad ...

So why is all this happening to ME .. ?

Also my mother... She was such a good person.. She always wanted the best for EVERYBODY..

So why she had to die? ... In such a cruel way?!

I don't get it ... I can't take it ... It's too much......